Sunday, June 29, 2008

For Whom the Bell Does Not Toll

In Milwaukee this weekend is one of the most interesting and heated debates that I have ever discovered. Not that there haven't been more dramatic discussions in history. But the scope of this dilemma for parents of deaf children is quite enormous.

How best to describe this situation? Why I suppose to make it real for myself - as I was born neither deaf nor to deaf parents I must equate it to my life. But here is a twist on the DEAF BILINGUAL COALITION (DBC) approach. By the way - in case it doesn't hit you over the head in my dripping sarcasm below... I am a HUGE supporter of DBC from this day forward!

Fictitious scenario that makes it REAL for me:

October of the year I was born, in a growing Southern college town. A Baby is delivered to my parents.

The happy couple are holding their second child in loving succession, passing this puffy and squirming bundle of potential back and forth - dreaming of the life it may begin leading this very day. My birth - my parents - my future. Awesomeness.

Months later the mother brings her child to the pediatrician for his first checkup. And after a few routine tests, with a bit of a scowl on his face, the doctor braces the mother for a difficult announcement.

"Nancy, I am not sure how progressed it is without further testing - but your son is showing signs of advanced hetero-loss."

The mother is shocked, partially from not having noticed it herself, but mostly because she has never met anyone or spoken to friends that have children who are hard of hetero... or worse... completely homo.

The doctor comforts her by explaining that if, in fact, the child proves to be suffering from some loss of normal ability - there are some new studies that show how the child can be mainstreamed and given all the tools necessary to pass himself as a hetero, or as near to one as modern science can create thanks to the brilliance of Alexander Gay Bell.

"We will teach him to recognize the beauty of the opposite gender, place electronic enhancements on his willy that pick up on the subtle attraction that must SURELY exist to girls - and then we will amplify those signals until he is a fully endowed pseudo-hetero capable of mating any female with convincing accuracy!!"


I could continue this ludicrous approach to pairing the experience that gay and deaf child might or might not have in common. But I will get to my point...

Studies have proven that using sign language as an early form of communication is beneficial to both hearing and deaf infants. It stimulates intellect, vocabulary, communication and overall self esteem. Therefore the simple introduction of ASL or Baby signs into an infants life could be extremely useful, even if later the child and family decide that there are benefits to be had from other assisted aural techniques.

In the same way I cannot imagine how different my life would have unfolded if EARLY in my experience, an informed professional adult might have indicated to my parents that it is perfectly normal for a blossoming gay child to engage in certain behaviors... there might have been so many more years of formative bonding than having to "present" a certain story to the world (both as a closeted child and what I imagine are closeted parents when they observe feminine qualities in a boy child.)

Whatever the answer is - I do not have it. But as I read with wonder and awe the experience of young adults or older adults that were mainstreamed with AGBell methods and philosphies - the simple rapture they express when finally achieving dynamic acceptance and abilities and self esteem by embracing their "native and innate" language through ASL. Well, it is like reading a tender coming out story. A being overcoming adversity to rise above expectations... and be who they were born to be.

And it is for them, those for whom the bell does not toll, that I am grateful tonight. Both as a Bodhisattva in training and a fledgling ASL student.

We are, all of us, blessed to be. And being what we are... should become more possible EVERY SINGLE DAY.

Sign early, sign proudly, teach me to sign with you - and I will do my best to hear you in your glory with my eyes, my heart and my mind!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

PROUD to launch Bowdawgs Site


So today is a doubly festive occasion. Marred with challenges - but ever determined... I have created a new site at www.bowdawgs.com

The idea is to create a web portal to gay owned and operated sites/businesses/services, etc... and to also feature what I call "Straight but not Narrow" sites. That is sites owned and operated by people who may not be gay themselves, but are supportive of the community by exprssing their lives with tolerance and inclusion!

There is not a lot to the site yet - but keep posted because I will expand it slowly over time. And it is tied back to the blog here so you might meet some new folks from "over yonder!"

By the way - today is Flagstaff "Pride in The Pines", so that was why I wanted to launch TODAY!

Here's to new beginnings... and since Buddhism is a tolerant and inclusive path - I felt that these sites should all link together!!

Love ya lots!
-Bowdawg

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Fresh Out of Sleepiness

Some nights it happens. Mania you might call it. I think the full moon could be blamed. Or the anticipation of moving 'cross country without any of the logistics solidified. Addiction to Netflix per chance? (I watched Disk 2 of Dexter series tonight) in the lingering stimulation of Saga Dawa Duchen & our dinner at Rebels which highlighted my Wednesday. And we took the dogs on an outing to the Amitabha Stupa!!

No... none of these causing my insomnia? Alright what about anticipation of an 8:30 A.M. doctor's appointment tomorrow... and sign language tutoring with Jack at 10:30? Oooh oooh... JETSUNMA is teaching at 3:30 PM today to newer students and I am running a phone link...

Still not convinced why I am awake? Hey... there is that $5,000 emergency room bill that came today for my kidney stone. I almost passed another one. I thought Old Navy had paid the whole thing via our insurance. Nope - just $1,000 and change. (What the heck cost $5k anyway - they shot me up with painkillers and gave me a special bucket to pee in. I'm in the wrong business!?)

Well - whatever the culprit that is delaying my nightly visit from Mr. Sandman... I figured you all might be entertained in the process...

CAUTION: BAD WORDS AHEAD...

I found this on a friend of a friend's Myspace... it made me laugh! And then I said a quick prayer for Rabden so that we are not seeing this as a projection of Avi's future!! (Just kidding Rella... I sure wish I had the graduation story from my first blog - that would have enhanced this moment! Cursed Impermanence!)

Monday, June 16, 2008

If I Only Had A Brain....

...I'm sure I would understand the implications here!


We are often taught about the fluidity of karma and I think this is an interesting attempt of science to understand that very nuance. The lamas have even advised us that a pregnant practitioner may want to refrain from learning the gender of their unborn child because once you "solifdify" the phenomena, there is no room for the karma to ripen and we have imposed a view upon that life. Anyway - I found this article pretty interesting. Nature -vs- nurture? Ummm we call it habitual tendency kids!


Gay men and straight women share brain detail:




Gay men and straight women share some characteristics in the area of the brain responsible for emotion, mood and anxiety, researchers said on Monday in a study highlighting the potential biological underpinning of sexuality.



Brain scans also showed the same symmetry among lesbians and straight men, the researchers wrote in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.



"The observations cannot be easily attributed to perception or behavior," the researchers from Sweden's Karolinska Institute wrote. "Whether they may relate to processes laid down during the fetal or postnatal development is an open question."



A number of studies have looked at the roles genetic, biological and environmental factors play in sexual orientation but little evidence exists that any plays an all-important role. Many scientists believe both nature and nurture play a part.



Brain scans of 90 volunteers showed that the brains of heterosexual men and homosexual women were slightly asymmetric with the right hemisphere slightly larger than the left, Ivanka Savic and Pers Lindstrom wrote. The brains of gay men and heterosexual women were not.
Then they measured blood flow to the amygdala -- the area key for the "fight-or-flight" response -- and found it was wired in a similar fashion in gay men and heterosexual women as well as lesbians and heterosexual men.



The researchers added that the study cannot say whether the differences in brain shape are inherited or due to exposure to hormones such as testosterone in the womb and if they are responsible for sexual orientation.



But this is something they plan to look at in a further study of newborn babies to see if it can help predict future sexual orientation.



"These observations motivate more extensive investigations of larger study groups and prompt for a better understanding of the neurobiology of homosexuality," they wrote.



(Reporting by Michael Kahn; Editing by Will Dunham and Ralph Boulton)

Friday, June 13, 2008

Salt~N~Pepa would LOVE this article...

Disclaimer: Adult Subject Matter Ahead.

Okay, so my personal opinions on some of this could be LEGION, so I am presenting it without any commentary, as it appeared in Salon.

The reason I include it here is that I am fascinated by the karmic implications of some of the behaviors that are explored in the research. I am sure that many a scientific mind could argue back and forth on the accuracy of overgeneralized statements - but the interesting part as a practitioner is to know that there are so many different manifestations of desire - which the Buddha explained is the source of all suffering. That is not JUST sexual desire - but this article spotlights all the ways in which that one biological function can dictate our activities... ENJOY.

"Hard Drive"

By Tracy Clark-Flory

Jun. 13, 2008 The animal kingdom is crawling with kink: threesomes, sadomasochism, spontaneous sex changes, and coital decapitation, for starters. There are also male ducks with corkscrew-shaped penises and sea creatures that shoot acidic semen leaving their partner pregnant and covered in burns. Nature even has its own date rape drug: the Great Barrier Reef's yellow slug delivers a sedative to its desired mate with a quick penile stab.

It's all in the name of successfully passing along genes -- much like these creatures' human counterparts. The male of our species has yet to evolve flesh-eating sperm, but their biological imperative to sow their seeds has led to similarly mind-boggling behavior, like paying $2,150 for seduction seminars. Faye Flam, a science reporter for the Philadelphia Inquirer, charts this carnal quest in "The Score: How the Quest for Sex Has Shaped the Modern Man," and details the trade-off experienced by most males: They invest less than females in reproduction, but pay for it (among humans, sometimes literally) by working harder to have sex in the first place. After all, some male mammals need only ejaculate, while the female is responsible for gestation and nursing.

In addition to engaging in pop-culture discussions (like Christopher Hitchens' assertion that women aren't funny) and scientific meditations, Flam also infiltrates a pickup artist's boot camp, tours the world's only penis museum (Iceland's Institute of Phallology), and grills experts on the sex lives of our Stone Age ancestors. There's very little that escapes her survey of men's sexual selves, including pornography, monogamy, parenting and homosexuality.

Salon spoke with Flam by phone from her desk in the Philadelphia Inquirer's newsroom.

In your book, you mention the idea that everybody -- including animals -- wants to be the male when it comes to sex. Why is that?

It has to do with a couple of common male traits that run through the whole biological world. One of them is that the sperm are smaller than the egg and for most male animals that translates into not having to invest as much energy or work into the babies. Everybody wants to do less work. It's a universal laziness.

You really only have a chance to see that sexual choice play out in these crazy sea worms that can be either male or female. Before they have sex, they fight it out, and the winner always plays the male role. Most other animals don't get the chance to fight for the right to be the male during reproduction.

There are a few animals that turn the tables and the female sticks the male with all the work. More often than not, though, the females not only have to either incubate the babies or create the eggs, but they also end up stuck with more of the work. The males can pass on their genes without investing quite as much.

What about the question of pleasure. Does that play into the male sexual advantage?
It's hard to say what is going on in animals' heads when they're having sex. Who knows whether it's any more pleasurable for these sea worms -- if they feel any pleasure -- to be the male during sex, and that's why they fight over the position or whether it's just an instinct.

One of the funny things about sex is that we have an urge to do it, we want it, but it doesn't always turn out that well. You can chase and chase after someone, but it doesn't necessarily mean the sex will be particularly pleasurable. That may be something that's going on with a lot of men. But they chase it anyway.

Your book mentions the idea that sexual anticipation, rather than realization, might give us greater pleasure.

They're doing a lot of research in an area called neuro-economics where they're looking at what really gives people pleasure and why we spend our money the way we do. Apparently, an animal's brain really reacts and the pleasure centers turn on during the period when he's anticipating a reward, not when he actually gets it. That's a growing area of research right now and it applies well to sex.

Pickup artist Mystery's "Venusian Arts" -- which you point out should technically be called "Venereal Arts" -- loom large in your book. Does it have a biological basis?

The pickup artists illustrate a couple of things really well. First, they illustrate the idea that because males invest less in offspring, their success in evolutionary terms is more tenuous. Males are more likely to get completely frozen out of reproduction. So they are likely to end up evolving to chase after sex in a way that females might not. The pickup artists illustrate the way that men are likely to invest a lot of their money and time in going after plain old sex.

Second, there were some things they did that psychologists believe might really work -- and they would probably work for females, too, in some cases. Their concept of playing hard to get was tested in a lab. There was a speed-dating setup in which people pretty successfully guessed how picky their opposite-sex counterparts were. The participants they liked the most were the ones they thought were the pickiest. So, projecting that you're picky could actually be helpful.

The pickup artists also attempt to play on people's tendencies to copy each other. They would show up somewhere with a lot of female friends, so that women would look at them and think, "Wow, he must be popular. Those women must see something in him." That's also something that works on some animals. A researcher actually surrounded male birds with fake female birds, and the real females went for the males surrounded by decoys. The females were attuned to thinking they had to have what everybody else wanted.

You mention some people's desire to return to the "simple" days of hunting and gathering, when men and women had strict sex roles. How accurate is this popular perception of those times?

I had a long interview with an archaeologist, James Adovasio, who co-wrote a book on the topic called "The Invisible Sex." He exploded all of these myths. From what we know from archaeological records, and modern people that hunt and gather, women were pretty independent. They could get fish, small animals and plants on their own. They really weren't dependent on men -- at least to eat, anyway. The idea that somehow in the old days the men's hunting was so terribly important is a myth. Our picture of prehistoric man was built up during the late 1800s, so it was a reflection of what men thought life should be more than what it really was.

That opens the way for a lot of interesting evolutionary forces. If women aren't dependent on men then they can afford to be picky, they can decide to only mate with the men who are skilled singers, attractive or good fathers. It puts men under an evolutionary pressure of a different kind.

It's a commonly made assertion that testosterone is "poison." How has that idea been challenged?

I traced the term "testosterone poisoning" to Alan Alda, of all people. He used it in an article for Ms. magazine and it really caught on. Subsequent research suggests testosterone simply needs to be balanced. If you shoot yourself up with lots of testosterone, that's probably going to really hurt your health, but if your testosterone gets too low, it can also be associated with health problems and depression. It looks like there is a healthy amount for men.

The level of testosterone a man has ebbs and flows over the course of the day and his lifetime.

Speaking of testosterone, why did risk-taking evolve in men?

That's the subject of a lot of speculation in evolutionary psychology. A lot of it comes down to showing-off behavior. It's a peacock type behavior -- among peacocks, the male with the best tail gets all the females. It's possible that over the long history of humanity men who did incredibly risky things and survived would be like the peacock with the best tail. They would be the heroes, whether it was for beating up someone from an enemy group or hunting a dangerous animal.

Males are under more evolutionary pressure than women to stand out from the crowd. Every study shows that men are more likely to do risky things of all kinds. Women simply have a little more common sense when it comes to drinking, driving, guns -- that sort of thing.

What are we to make of the fact that the Y chromosome is actually shrinking?

I've talked at great length to the first scientist to propose that the Y chromosome was shrinking, and she was shocked that people got so up in arms about it. It would take millions of years or maybe hundreds of thousands of years for it to completely disappear -- in any case, it won't cause males to go extinct. We know of two other mammals that have actually lost their Y chromosome and, somehow, they keep making males and females. Scientists aren't sure what they're doing, but there must be some new genetic switch that creates males.

Do alpha males exist in human society as they do in the animal world?

In animals like gorillas and chimpanzees and dogs, it's much more clear-cut -- the alpha male has to beat everybody else up. Then he gets access to all the females. You can see similar stuff happening with humans, but instead of the tough guys, it's the artists, rock stars and actors who get all the attention.

Some animals have alpha females, but it's not too common. The bonobos, one of our closest relatives, have alpha females. They're actually more powerful than the males. The females dominate the whole group.

What inspires monogamy and fatherly behavior in animals?

It can have something to do with how much care the offspring actually need. If you're a male bird and all of your offspring are going to die if you don't take care of them, then your genes will not pass on to the next generation. You will be a Darwinian failure. In that case, only males who stick around to help will manage to pass on their genes.

In some cases, like in some fish, the females just abandon the eggs, and if the male doesn't take care of them, they won't survive. Sometimes the female turns the tables.

And humans are somewhere in the middle when it comes to sex and commitment?

Currently, yes. There's a lot of monogamy and paternal care, but we're not quite as monogamous as birds and some other animals. Women can have sex, have babies and get by without a man. Monogamy depends a lot on social groups and whether you have help in raising offspring. Humans are so flexible. There are ways women can work around the need for fatherly care.
In a lot of groups, there is serial monogamy. In a lot of cultures around the world it's pretty common that people go through a couple relationships in their lifetime. People can be monogamous but not mate for life.

You raise the possibility that DNA paternity testing and contraceptives could, respectively, change men and women's sexual drives. Can you explain that?

It goes back to the common themes that run through males and females. One of those is the uncertainty of paternity: Females know which baby is theirs, males don't necessarily. Paternity testing might make men more afraid of certain types of sex, like sex with women they would like to never see again. It might not make them less interested in sex, but rather more circumspect about whom they have sex with.

On the other hand, it could be that women have traditionally been more circumspect about sex because, until more recently, ending up pregnant was an ever-present possibility. Birth control takes away some of the risk.

What might cloning and artificial insemination mean for men's and women's sex drives?

Both would probably have a similar effect in that they would amplify men's perceived risk of not having any kids. It might make their evolutionary existence even more tenuous. Women could have reproductive independence. A man can't use cloning to have a baby but women could, in theory.

It seems it could make men even more competitive. I think it makes men insecure, the idea that in the future they could be left out of the equation completely.

-- By Tracy Clark-Flory

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Meeting Your Mind

Yes, well sometimes a moment of awkward discomfort can lead to a small revelation.

I was just now lost in the web (as it were) reading about "giving an undeserved standing ovation". A web site I joined a while back is all about keeping yourself and others sane at work by taking little 5 minute refreshers each day.

The irony?

I was so lost in the page and concentrating on directing an ovation to someone that I was completely unaware of a young lady exiting the shop.

Young Lady: "Tired of the tourists already?"
Me: (Surprised at her accurate observation) "Ummm?"
Young Lady: "It amazes me how none of the shop owners here even greet people..."

Okay, so cue the disparraging music from the Brady Bunch. I was so busy trying to think of someone whose day I could "make" by acknowledging them for nothing in particular. And right in front of me was a person who CLEARLY would have appreciated a simple "Good Morning".

And so it goes.

I truly do hope she has a good morning. And later today I intend to have my cranium surgically removed from my rectum!!







*SIGH*

By the way - here is the link. I truly like the concept. I am just being hard on myself because my timing is always "off".

pay it forward

Monday, June 9, 2008

Weed Whacking

Weeds
Anybody out there a fan of the Showtime program WEEDS? John and I have been consuming this program of late - and what a fun show it is!

But as a Buddhist (at the risk of sounding repetitive) I always watch a program like that from a slightly different perspective.

Just like Six Feet Under sucked me in by brilliant humor in juxtaposition to very diffilcult subject matter - Weeds looks at "normal life" through the lens of a "non-legitimized" profession. It is so quirky and every twist in the plot actually will have me wondering - who thinks of all this complexity?

I mean do they set out with a basic idea, and the rest just "clicks" into place? Or do they have an end goal (story line) in mind and they just connect the dots with each new show.

My sense is that it is not dis-similar to what our lama describes as the ego and its "superstructure."

At some point in time so long ago we cannot even imagine it, the truth that simply is decided to experience itself... and an explosion of myriad potentials and possibilities unfolded. Those results include me sitting here writing this - and you sitting there reading this. It is all possible - so we simply craft the drama that plays out between my writing and your reading. Likewise the creators of shows like Weeds turn their imagination loose - and we (a captive audience whether in first run, re-run or Netflix) are enamoured, or repulsed or indifferent.

Life is Dharma, and vice-versa. And I laugh and ponder the insanity of this show. And it (once again) makes me very happy to have a lama and a path out of the burning house that we so tenatively cling to... Samsara!

Friday, June 6, 2008

Reunited - And it Feels So Good


Very quiet here in uptown Sedona. So, of course... I am online - making the time pass.


It is a reunion kind of day. All seemingly unrelated - I got an e-mail from Blake and another former classmate about the 20 year reunion in October of this year (hooray) - I found 3 other friends on Facebook as well - all from Highschool. So I guess there is something in the ethers!?


It is funny because I went to the reunion site and perused the mini bios that people have posted. I find it amazing how diverse all the lives have become. And of course I have my "hesitations" about going to a highschool reunion. All the insecurities that I lived through back then are somehow tied into the familiar names and faces as I scroll through the list.


I mean let's face it... those years are tough under the BEST of circumstances. But throw into the mix that some of us end up in alternative lifestyles.... well I have to admit that the Southeast isn't my FAVORITE environment as a gay Buddhist! Even when I go visit my family in Athens and Atlanta - I feel that shroud of that closet surround me again. Instinctively almost, I have to try harder to just relax and be me. (Which is even funnier if you understand the point of being Buddhist.)


That is actually a silly notion since these are my roots. Even though I was unsure about the truth of my personality back then - those friends and experiences and relationships during the "formative" years helped mold the final outcome... and for that alone I look forward to returning to Athens and telling all those familiar faces - THANKS FOR THE PARTICIPATION IN LIFE.


And we did have some times! Anyone who flips through their yearbook and is riveted by the flood of memories, thoughts, recollections - anxieties, bliss moments... all of it. That crazy time when you are discovering your life, your body, your personality, your faith - all the changes coming at warp speed. The bond of friends, the challenge of foes - the pressures of all that CRAP that everyone faces in those teen years - it all seems unending in that moment - but now twenty years have passed. And it seems somewhat trivial.


I hope we have all grown wiser, more encouraging of diversity, more accepting of our own flaws and more loving in our accomplishments, trials, losses and gains. Seeing the number of people already who have formed marriage bonds, had children, survived divorce, made great progress in a vocation or slacked a bit (ahem - that would certainly include me) - it shows that we are not cookie cutter products of the schools we attend.


I'll end by saying... Go Glads. And thanks for buoying my mood on an otherwise lackluster Friday in the shop.


Images of Leisure...

Dipping my tootsies in the cool Pacific at Venice Beach in California...

Dennis snoozing in a chair at Six Flags Magic Mountain/Valencia, CA (I wish I had audio, he is sleeping right under a loud roller coaster, two sources of music are blaring, people are playing those obnoxious games to win stuffed animals with bells and whistles, and screams lofting down from overhead on the rides... but Dizzy Bear is nonplussed.)

Upon returning to work, I finally got to meet Hamesh (like GAME-ISH with an "H" - it is gaelic for James I believe.) This is Rebel and Kenny's 9 week old puppy. He is a doll baby!!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

LA Trip

Good Times, Great Beaches, And Fantastic Friends! (Photo 1: The Cali Crew - Dennis, Bowdawg, John and Matthew.)












I met up with my highschool friend Blake Windal who has settled in the
OC with his wife and 2 daughters. Blake is the operations manager of the Irvine Spectrum Centre - An amazing retail destination very near Laguna Beach. (Photo 2: Blake and I yucking it up over some crazy memory from CCHS days!!)











Also John reunited with his college roommate Jonathan and his wife Liza (pronounced Lee-za) who he had not seen in 10+ years. Liza is a comedian and needless to say we shared a lot of guffaws while hanging out together!

(Photo 3: Liza and John shopping in LA).



Much more to follow, but I needed to post to retain my credibility as a blogger!



Still peeling my exoskeleton at this point, but there will be details of the trip soon...